Monday, June 9, 2025

The Letters ✉️

 ✨A story✨

She didn’t want the letters.

The ones he sent with no words, only folded bills—

quiet offerings sealed in envelopes,

as if affection could be weighed

or forgiveness could be bought.


He called it kindness.

Said he still wanted to “be there,”

but she could taste the guilt behind it—

bitter as the coffee left cold

on mornings she wept without witness.


To the world, it looked like generosity.

To her, it felt like hush money.

An attempt to stay tethered,

not out of love,

but to ease the weight of his own conscience.


And oh, she had known weight.

Not just the sorrow of being left,

but the hollowness of staying too long

in rooms where love once lived

but no longer spoke.


She remembered how he’d offered friendship

like a soft landing—

a bridge between heartbreak and forgetting.

But you can’t build friendship

on the ashes of betrayal.

You can’t sip tea with someone

who caused and watched you unravel

and called it dramatic.


She didn’t hate him.

That wasn’t her way.

No curses, no fire in her throat.

Only a quiet ache and a deeper truth.


Because she had learned—

slowly, stubbornly, sacredly—

that real love shows up with open hands,

not open wallets.

It stays for the hard conversations.

It doesn’t vanish

and then offer you a lifeline

knotted in shame.


The city was unraveling.

Men were losing fortunes and names.

Women were stitching dignity

into the hems of their grief.

And still,

she chose herself.


Every morning she opened the curtains,

watched the light spread across the floor,

and remembered:

wholeness cannot be built

from the scraps someone else left behind.


She doesn’t hate the woman who stayed,

the one still taking his calls,

folding his bills into her wallet

like blessings.

Money is her god.


But she knows—

a woman cannot call herself whole

while cradling what broke her.

She cannot say she trusts God

and still keep one foot in the door

of a man who loves in fractions

and repents in dollars.


So she walks forward.

Truth in soul,

wind in her lungs,

grief behind her,

grace before her.


She doesn’t answer the letters.

She doesn’t explain her silence.

She doesn’t look back.


Because a woman like her

knows the difference now.

Between guilt and love.

Between staying and surrender.

Between a man who needs her

and one who chooses her.


And when love finally arrives—

unburdened, unafraid,

with hands that don’t tremble—

she’ll meet him barefoot,

and without apology.


Because she is whole. 

She is not scraps.



Dominion 👺

✨Holy War✨


It was cold that day.

Not just the kind of cold that crept through the trees, but the kind that made the air feel watched.


We were camped beside the river—tailgate open, the mountain rising just beyond the water.

I was standing there, stirring eggs and frying bacon

He was behind me, stoking the flames like it was the only thing he knew how to do.


And then I felt it.

That invisible thread across the back of my neck.

Not wind.

Not fear.

Something else.

Something that wasn’t him and wasn’t me.


I didn’t turn around.

I didn’t scream.

I just whispered.


“You don’t own me.

You have no dominion here.

And you don’t own him either.

He is not yours.

He is a child of God.

I command you to leave.”


I kept stirring. Kept grounding. Kept praying.


And then I heard him—soft, shaken.


“Can you come here for a second?”


I turned. “What’s wrong?”


“I don’t feel good, all of a sudden.”


I pulled the food off the heat, walked to him, sat on his lap like I always did when he was tired or touch-starved.

I laid my head against his shoulder, breathing calm into him.


And I whispered again, not for him—but for what was listening:


“You don’t own him.

You have no dominion here.

Leave.”


Immediately… He jolted.


“Get up. Get up. I think I’m about to be sick—”


He ran behind the trees, doubled over in the brush.

Like something inside him couldn’t hold itself any longer.

Like something I had challenged couldn’t stand to stay.



We didn’t stay camp another night.

He could not hold anything down. 

He couldn’t hike or pretend.

So we packed up & checked into a hotel, 

just to warm up. Just to rest.

Or so I thought.


Whatever had been shaken loose by my words in the woods— it came back.

And this time, it didn’t want deliverance.

It wanted control. 

Revenge.


That night wasn’t intimacy.

It was violence.

Love wasn’t made—

It made war.

With it’s fists against my skin.

With bruises blooming across my chest like warnings.

With a grip around my throat that wasn’t just about pressure— but possession.


I didn’t scream.

I dissociated.

Because my spirit had seen enough.


I saw something— not with my eyes, but with the part of me that knows when a room is no longer just a room.

Something climbed into him.

Something old.

And it wasn’t there to hold.

It was there to watch.

To feed.

To humiliate the sacred.

To break my spirit.


And I remember thinking afterward,

as I lay in silence next to a man whose face 

I no longer recognized:


Women are sacred.

Women are holy.

Women are the portals through which life, spirit, and soul pass into this world.

And I just let a desecrated temple into mine.



I used to think it was just connection.

Now I know it’s contract.

An invitation.

A ritual.

A gate.


And not every man who enters is alone.


Sometimes he brings legions.

Sometimes he brings hunger that isn’t even his.

Sometimes he comes not to worship—

but to conquer the very thing that could make him whole.


And I wonder now…

If this is what happened to Lilith.